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2: I want to cry.
It's the last week of normal classes and I have all my projects due next week. This morning was the official kickoff of my insanely-stressed-out-and-too-busy-freaking-out-to-talk-to-anyone state of mind. I have a lot of important work to do... or more like START and I can't seem to focus for more than 3 seconds. FUCK MY WORTHLESS ATTENTION SPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish I had an Adderall dealer. Those little things are like miracles in a pill.
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My Blueberry Nights
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Norah Jones- The Story
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4:Many men... many many many many men wish death upon me.
I just went to get coffee downstairs and there are some mighty fine lookin brownies sittin in the baked goods case. I'm thinking about buying one to contribute to the "We Like Sara FAT!" coalition. Their offices are located in my fat rolls if you would like to talk to them. I talk to them everyday.
There's four weeks left. I'm not happy about this because I'm scared. One semester finished is another semester closer to being on my own... in the real world. This thought makes me curl up in a ball on the floor and cry for my mother every night.
I've been looking at grad schools though. Yup, spent three hours lookin at grad schools for Landscape Architecture last night. Nothing like that Martha Stewart home gardening bullshit, though. no way. you can hire fresh over the border peoples to do that stuff. I'm talkin about this stuff: http://www.west8.nl/
It's more like Urban Design+Landscape Architecture kind of work that I'm interested in. I feel like I should study a little bit of architecture, too, cause it would be good to understand buildings since urban design and landscape architecture are in the same field as architecture. but i don't really know if it's that necessary.
So for my time off from school again... coming up in the summer til the end of fall '09, I need to whip my lazy ass into action to find an internship. I was thinking about interning in China, Spain, or London.
I've also been thinkin about goin into Graphic Design too. I've been havin an overall good and fun experience in those classes. I'm thinkin about lookin for an internship for that too.
3 out of 4 of my classes are assigning some kind of book making project as a final. Isn't that funny? I've never done any book making in my life! and suddenly BAM! MAKE US BOOKS! ... okay teachers.
I'm thinking about leaving xanga and going to blogspot. I've had a lot of history here, though. That could actually be more reason for my to move on. I think I need a fresh start, because I write boring now. and there's too much clutter in xanga now. Yah know, like those stupid ads, and boxes boxes boxes to the left and right. You can edit those things out and stuff, but it's too much work. I just want to write stuff and not worry about how ugly and cluttered my xanga is with those stupid boxes. It bothers me when I read other people's xangas too. I need them to reconsider the placement of their box module thingamajigs, but then I realize that I need to too.
........ Xanga has just become too much for me, sooooooo.... perhaps after this semester... there will be no more Sara's xanga. :/ I am open to any thoughts/comments about this, but first, I would like to say: I will NOT join livejournal instead.
That's all.
Hugs and kisses.
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Get Rich Or Die Tryin
By 50 Cent
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7: OH MY GAD!
I've been working on a project for Urban Design where we explore areas of Baltimore that we usually wouldn't venture out to.... aka the ghettos. After goin out there a good couple times by myself, I'm pretty sure now that god loves me or something. Ignorance is not always bliss... it is dangerous sometimes. Long story short, I stumbled into the worst part of the west but wasn't bothered or anything. I came out unharmed. When i got to a different neighborhood and talked to one of the kind residents there, he was suprised that i wasn't jumped and mugged or raped. i was there around noon time, but apparently people out there will jump you whatever time of day without a face mask or anything. This happened more than one time... me goin into the most dangerous parts and coming out without a scratch. Maybe I'm just over exaggerating.
Anyway, for this project we're supposed to pick a part of Baltimore and revitalize or rebuild it somehow. I chose this small neighborhood in some forgotten corner of West Baltimore called Harlem Park. We presented our proposals to the city planning board of Baltimore yesterday (friday) and i'm a little disappointed with the response. They were more interested in the busier areas of baltimore than they were with neighborhoods like mine that are off to the side and out of sight. Life is not fair sometimes. No matter how much effort you put in, how hard you work, how much sweat you've sweated, and how much heart you put in sometimes life is just still not fair.
I was discouraged at first for awhile, but this could actually be a chance for the underdogs to come through. I now must think of something for this area that will be so brilliantly genius that after this project, millions of urban design and landscape architecture firms will want to hire me. :)
Tonight I'm staying in to do homework and laundry. I am officially wearing the last pair of underwear that I own. After this pair.... i don't know what to do except not wear any if i don't do laundry tonight.
Homeworking hasn't been too productive. I've spent most of my time stressing out and trying to evade stressing out by eating cookies and ice cream and cereal and napping. oh lordy, i'm a mess.
Yesterday was Halloween and i dressed up as a hunter. I had my hunter hat and boots and stuff. I was supposed have a rifle, but I couldn't find one in time so i used this medium sized indian spear. It worked out quite well.
There was a warning from campus safety about some new gang wanting to make their debut in Baltimore by fulfilling their mission of killing 41 women before the end of the night. Well, I heard it was either the Bloods or Cryps who were doing some kind of initiation mission of killing 41 women each new member by the end of the night. Whichever it was, it got me a little nervous, but I still went out hoping for the best. I think it was just a rumor though, cause I haven't heard anything more about it today.
When I was researching Harlem Park for my project, I interviewed some cops about the area. They told me some pretty cool stuff as usual and mentioned that I could sign up to do a ride along with them through the area. That would be pretty sick, but my friend, who's a guy and has a lot of experience with cops, told me that they only mentioned it to me so that they could hit on me during the ride along. darn. I still want to go on the ride along, but I don't really want to be verbally raped.
I trying to sleep normally (getting 7-8 hours a night). Not sleeping is making me fatter. I'm sorry. I'm obsessed with being not fat and not having fat things roll over my jeans. It's a girl thing I guess. It's annoying to everyone and me, but it's all I ever think about... besides surfing and snowboarding and atv-ing.
Typography and Graphic Design are going okay again. They're gettin interesting, except I'm getting artist block or something and it stresses me the fuck out. My head and stomach are very well going to explode any hour now.
This is a very stressful time, these last weeks. I don't like it one bit.
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8: 7 if you don't include Thanksgiving Week
Only eight more weeks of fighting to stay alive are left. I am definitely about to drown. The days of this week since monday have been nothing but more gloomy gloomy gloomy. But the fall break was absolutely divine.
I'm ridiculously behind in Typography. Graphic Design is beginning to bore me. Urban Design is still a winner. and I keep unconsciously neglecting History of Material Culture.
It's kind of weird how I despise my Urban Design teacher the most (cause she's so god damn lazy and she's such a fuckin douchebag), but it's her class that I'm still interested in. Right now, though, i want to stab her in the face.
Anyway. Boys don't help with anything but create more drama to worry about. I am definitely an emotional eater, i have found, and I absolutely CANNOT tolerate this. I've worked hard to drop back 4 pant sizes and will never make it to the end if i find even a millimeter of fat roll over my jeans next week.
I need to manage my time better so I don't get fat. This is silly, because I should be saying "I need to manage my time better so I can get good grades." Whichever train of thought is right, it doesn't matter because if i learn how to manage my time, I won't get fat and I'll get good grades. This will be my motivation.
This was a lot of crazy woman talk. All I really wanted to say is that life is hard and I wish I was better at being a good student.
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Audioslave
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11:eleven
I haven't been in the mood for posting. Nothing exciting has really happened. Except for this one kid who got stuck up with a machete:From: Campus Safety Sent: Mon 9/22/2008 8:13 PM To: Staff; Faculty; Students Cc: Subject: MICA Campus Safety - Security Advisory Report 9/22/08 Attachments: View As Web Page On Friday September l9, 2008 at approximately 11:45 pm, a MICA student walking alone through the Mount Royal Elementary School parking lot on his way to the Commons was approached from behind and forced to the ground by two individuals with a machete. The perpetrators (detailed descriptions not available) took the victim’s wallet and fled the scene. Baltimore City Police and Campus Safety were notified, and searched the area; an arrest has not been made.
Additionally, MICA has been made aware of three other robberies in Bolton Hill. Baltimore City Police can only confirm the incidents that occurred on Friday. Saturday’s incident has not been officially reported to them.
- Friday September 19, 2008 at about 8:00 pm a woman was exiting her car at the corner of Park Avenue and Laurens Street when a male perpetrator showed a sharp weapon and robbed her of her purse.
- Friday September 19, 2008 at about 9:03 pm a man standing outside his car in the 300 block of Laurens Street was robbed by male perpetrator with a gun.
- Saturday September 20, 2008 at about 6:00 pm a male perpetrator forced his way into a woman's apartment in the 1700 Block of Park Avenue, showed a gun and robbed her of her money.
Baltimore City Police are investigating and has put additional police in Bolton Hill in response to these incidents.
Crime Prevention Tips:
· Avoid isolated locations - if you must walk, walk with a group.
· Use the MICA Shuttle even for short trips (operates 5 pm– 4 am).
· Be alert to your surroundings at all times.
If you are the victim of a crime or witness any suspicious behavior, please contact Baltimore City Police (911) immediately and then notify Campus Safety (443-423-3333).
Well, it's not supposed to be exciting in a good way. But it's pretty much the more interesting story i have right now. The rest is... boring because all I've been doin is homework. I tried to post during the weekend I moved into my new room. It went something like this: I'm tired.
The end. That was all. It was a futile attempt to keep up with this once a week thing. I'll try again next week. But it is 1am now and I must save my life. Oh how I'm looking forward to Fall Break.
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Year of the Gentleman
By Ne-Yo
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13 weeks to go: I think I scare my roommate.
Second week of school- not so bad. I couldn't add any 300+ level lit classes cause they were all full, so only 12 credits this semester it looks like. Even though it's less classes to worry about, it means 18 credits next semester to make up for those 3 credits not taken. Whatev. too confusing to talk about credits. but what i will talk about are the lit classes. French Feminism, Masculinity, EnviroLiterature or something, etc etc. catch my drift? yeah. that's why i don't want to take a lit class here. there are other interesting lit classes i've read/heard about but have yet to see them offered. MICA is a bitchin pain in the ass this semester.
Other than those nuisances, things are goin pretty great which is new and odd, but feels good. I'm becoming a reclusive workaholic for fear that my work might not be good enough and of falling behind though. And in the end, i do more than i had to. Ha. The overachieving Sara is back from the dead.... for now. dun dUN DUN!
I've figured out why my remote control wasn't working and fixed it. I don't want to tell what was wrong with it, because it's one of those situations where if you don't know the details, you'll think i was the dumbest idiot in the world. So it's best just to know that i can now watch tv properly and be happy for me! I have also discovered something extraordinary. but i don't want anyone to steal this idea/invention of mine, so i will tell you in secret if we cross paths and you ask me. It's a recipe, so if you like eating, it might be interesting and life-changing for you too.
My roommate is gone for the weekend again. I can pee with the door open and walk around naked now. -
14 weeks to go
I finished my first week of school and it was the dumbest week ever. I want to strangle the man who heads RESIDENCE LIFE!! other than that, classes are pretty cool. My favorites so far are Graphic Design1 and Urban Design. I have so much work to do though. Not a lot of projects... but the few i have already are already costing me precious sleeping hours. anyway, i'll continue more later. i'm tired. -
The Sexiest Scented Guy I've Ever Smelled.
Today. i sat next to a guy who smelled really good. it caught me off gaurd, because he did not seem to be the type to be the sexiest scented guy i've ever smelled. it was much like the situations in those axe commercials where the female(s) cannot resist the male because he smells so good. i wanted to put my nose close against his body and smell him all class long. but i was sitting in a broken chair so i ended up moving further back during the break. i also had to fart and didn't want to risk contaminating such a rare and exotic scent. i was hoping that i could still smell him from two rows behind, but you have to be sitting next to him to smell it. there's always next class. Next class, i will reunite with his wonderful scent.
About Me
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I was born in the ocean among the coral reefs of Australia. just kidding. i am a girl and a social phobic in real life.
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